Open Heart, Open Hands, Open Horizon…

Nothing like waking up at 6:30 on the first morning of your vacation. Clearly my mind needs to realize we are on vacation. And the best way to do that is to write it out, and beings its still dark and hubby is sleeping, I grab my computer instead of pen n paper.. Yesterday we said good-bye to the twins we’ve had in our home since July. We knew it was coming for awhile and had been having overnight visits, so the transfer went good and in a way it still doesn’t seem real. Like, we’ll just come home and go get them again, right?  But I knew in my heart it was different when we dropped them off this time. And oh, it hurt. Why do the tears always insist on coming when I just want a composed good-bye, but instead have to rush away? Each one of our lil munchkins situation has been a lil different, but generally my heart has mostly been heavy with, “What will happen to them? I wish they didn’t have to face this traumatic change and good-bye, I’m grieving their losses, their confused lil minds, their tomorrows.”  But this time is different, and … Continue reading

“Life” on our Anniversary

Today is just a lil different than what I had imagined.. But it’s ok. I’m choosing to cherish the moments as this is what our imperfect, perfect life looks like! No, we still don’t have the ‘normal-family-life’ thing downpat, but come’on, I seriously doubt we’d be happy if we lived the American-normal. Most of the time I feel like we fit into a mold too much the way it is. Who defines ‘normal’ anyway?! lol Being without any kids for the past 2 months we decided we’re gonna go spend a few days in Nashville for our 4th Anniversary this year. Who lives just a few hours away and hasn’t spent time touring the famous city of Nashville? Yup, that would be us! So we were getting all excited and planning what we wanted to go see….. But Dan kept holding off on making actual motel reservations, because, as he said, “what if we’d get some kids”?! Sure enough, on Tuesday morning we were discussing that we should get our reservations made that evening and a few hours into the day. We get a phone call asking if we’d take 3 lil boys. Uh-oh. See, we’re just licensed for three. … Continue reading

Out with the Dead, in with LIFE

We recently had the opportunity of hosting some ‘new friends’ and we were really blessed in sharing time with each other, along with parts of our stories, and praying together. As they were preparing to leave, I gave them a print of the above photo along with our contact info. A lil bit later she comes back to me and says that as she was looking at this photo she saw something she felt like she was supposed to share. She sensed that like as in the picture, the background looks dead and brown with old buildings, and the foreground is just lightly turning green and showing life. That it is where we are at in our life right now; even though behind us we have had hard times where things seemed kinda dead, old and brown…that they are starting to change. And we will be beginning a new kind of life-that is “full of life”. I was so blessed by it and felt like it was from God..I just wanted to document it 🙂 Be blessed, God is always so faithful!  

Playmates /post surgery

Here’s who came and saw me today! My 2 adorable nieces…it sure cheered my afternoon just watching them play! And seeing all these tiny dolls and miniature little strollers and swing. And the teeny puppies that stayed ‘magnetted’ to the mama dogs mouth! Aww yes I know I sound like a kid! 🙂 And of course we can’t forget the handsome lil guy, which was trying so hard to be ‘all-boy’ with so much girl-ness all around him! And just a lil update on my progress; since a shower alone seems to exhaust me I just frequently wash my hair in the sink and today I managed to do it alone.                                                      I am trying so hard to not become discouraged…all I want to do is be able to be up and working without getting faint and tired.                                                                             … Continue reading

Run to the Doctor /post surgery

It really is quite strange to not have all those bandages on and actually be able to see what all they did. The worst thing is it feel so unsupported. We still wrap it up with ACE bandages, but with all the gauze gone the brace is so loose and when I walk it really hurts to try and put weight on it. Kinda feels like it is gonna ‘give way’. So I called the Dr and they said we can come upright away and they will adjust it. So as soon as someone could come take my Hubby’s place in the combine he took me to the Dr. I actually just saw his assistant Ms Diane Miller. She not only fixed the brace, she showed us how all the straps work! It’s quite the contraption!! But once it’s all explained, it’s actually kinda easy; but it sure had looked confusing. As much as we hadn’t felt like spending a $100+ out of pocket for the brace, we are now glad it was a requirement. With that not letting me bend and offering support in the right places I am allowed to put as much weight on as I can … Continue reading

2 year Anniversary

So May 19 has dawned again and today has been so unlike any 2 year Anniversary I could have ever imagined.. Life really has changed drastically here with my whole leg still being bandaged up from my surgery 5 days ago. Mornings have definitely been the worse and this morning was no different, me, not being able to get out of bed alone and then when I finally do so with my hubby’s help, sitting in the bathroom in a chilled state of sweat, feeling extremely nauseated, sipping on water to calm my stomach. However, once I have food and more pain prescription in my system things definitely start looking up! Yep, this is pretty much my station, not being able to bend my knee whatsoever. However this Anniversary Day did find us doing something together, my dear hubby hauled me in to my first Physical Therapy visit. Where they took off my bandages for the first time and I got to see my incision with 8 staples and the other 4 small cuts with stitches. It really does look good, but with my queasy stomach I didn’t want to think about it too long. And then we went shopping- (or rather … Continue reading

A Long Sunday /post-surgery

Yep I was hurting pretty bad by this morning! And we agreed that I’ll be taking those pills before bed tonight. 😉 It’s a real chore to get everything accomplished every day. When I’m sitting I can’t move my leg whatsoever without someone else (or me) picking it up and helping it. Getting in and out of bed by myself is not an option. Makes me realize over and over again how very blessed I am to have such a wonderful patient husband! He does a truly amazing job of helping me with every lil thing and I don’t ever hear him complain. When I went to have surgery done it didn’t even cross my mind that I wouldn’t be able to attend church the following Sunday. Yea, I know, I was really naive about it all! But now I’m wondering how Looong I’ll be stuck at home?! We had a message from Santosh Poonen that we’d wanted to listen to, so that helped our morning pass more quickly. My dear Hubby cleaned up the house, vacuumed, and washed the dishes. We had high hopes of getting some visitors all afternoon. BUT. No-one showed up, we were kind of really … Continue reading

Major Discovery /post-surgery

Finally. Last night was my first night of sleeping through the night without having to take pills, matter of fact without even as much as waking up!! It was super amazing to wake up and discover it’s 7:30 AM and I had just slept all night. I made a major discovery yesterday, when my husband wanted to leave in the afternoon to go to work and my sis came to stay with me. This was my discovery: “This recovery is going to take a LOT longer than I expected”! Yeah, I know, I didn’t say it was a good one.. It’s just that these pills that I’m taking really do have side affects, which I didn’t expect until I was having different issues and got smart and read up on the papers they sent with the pills. The main ones that I have bothered me are: dizziness, itchiness, nauseous, constipation, and sleepiness. The worst by far is feeling nauseous all the time and not being able to get up without feeling lightheaded. Drinking water and eating crackers to keep from puking. Painwise: it’s very tolerable most of the time but I can tell that something is different in my knee … Continue reading

Our Story [by julia]

The first time I met Dan was in January of 2007. this will be updated later 🙂

Our Wedding Day [part IV ceremony/reception]

We were blessed with a beautiful {hot} day and had our ceremony outdoors. And then {for the sake of my mother’s sanity} we had our reception in the community building-it served quite nicely. I just wanted to include a few of the highlights to give you an idea what took place 🙂 Photo credits go to Gingerich Photography.  we had fun being ‘stuffed’ in here while we waited for the guests to arrive.. meanwhile the bridal party was exiting the motorhome and FINALLY ‘almost ready’ to walk down the aisle 😉 there is ‘something’ about this picture that spells __________?  a special time of dedication prayer with our parents..I wanted to do something to symbolize our marriage…but not the ordinary like candles, sand, rings, etc….. so i started searching, and when I came across God’s Knot I just knew this was it! So absolutely perfect for us and how we view our marriage and want to build upon it! we are One! Now for the reception highlights… [thanks to my friend Judith for snapping this photo, i don’t have any of the building..] delicious food…amazing help that prepared it…they sang a few requested songs for us..the lively buncheveryone:) some details around our table … Continue reading

Our Wedding Day [part III bridal party]

This is our bridal party. If I may be partial i think we had the best and most fun bridal party ever..they did an awesome job of just being relaxed, going with the flow, laughing and just have a wonderful time together, we have many special memories with each one of them personally and to see them all come together and blend in making us all one big happy family-or so it seemed! I still laugh at some of the jokes and great moments we had while taking pictures and then when we were eating dinner.. 🙂 Plus our photographer, Brad did an AWESOME job of making us feel relaxed and capturing the moments! So without further ado, our lovely peeps:   the guys…   the girls… our miniature bride and groom…Amy. She’s Dan’s niece. such a sweet lil cutie-pie! Reece. he’s my baby…..i started babysitting him when he was just a wee baby and he’s always had a bit of my heart! my lil man.  Angela & Alayna. my twin nieces and our shy lil flowergirls.. Leah. my matron of honor and my dear sister. When it comes to sisters I really could not ask for a better friend and … Continue reading

Our Wedding Day [part II family]

    The Miller [bride] Family   The Hostetler [groom] Family Now here are some different family shots from the bride’s family: …with bride’s 8 siblings……Bride with her 4 brothers… …my mother & her 5 daughters… …mom&dad and their 9 children, i ges that means they accept Dan into the family:) …with my 11 nieces & nephews (minus 1 who was still well hidden inside Leah at the time:)…with my parents… …my Mom&Dad …me&mom <3 {she is the world’s best mother and I am so blessed to be her daughter&friend! …us with both of our parents.. …us with ALL of our nieces n nephews combined:) maybe someday we’ll have a family that big;) hey! He comes from a family of 13! hehe 🙂  different shots with the groom’s family.. …with his brothers, i realy don’t know WHY I was in this picture?!……groom & his 5 brothers..this is one of the most priceless pictures E.v.e.r. …with his 7 sisters…  …us with all of his 12 siblings…can you imagine the fun&fights growing up in this household?! …with his family {immediate+step siblings only} this was only 5 months after Pop had died… we missed you… …with his niece & nephew… …Dan’s mother… …ugh, i love this picture! mother&son… again, … Continue reading

Our Wedding Day [Part I “us”]

So even though it looks like I posted this long post with our pictures ON our Wedding Day…I obviously did not!! 🙂 But here’s where it all begins, on May 19th, 2012, our very own Beautiful Wedding Day….and this is where our sweet life together begins, and in wanting a blog to document ‘our life together’ ….I thought what would be more perfect than to make my first blogging post on that special day, as a concrete start. All photo credits go to Gingerich Photography. {where it all became history} the handsome groom…waiting on the bride to arrive… suspense was really getting to him n he says these were his most unliked pictures of the whole day 🙂 poor dear 😉 i think he’s just blowing it away with all his handsomeness going on!   I never liked the idea of everyone seeing the Bride in her attire before the wedding starts..neither did I like the idea of waiting alll morning to see my husband-to-be until I was walking down the aisle, but I wanted it to be a special moment of ‘seeing the dress and each other’….and when I first came across the idea of doing a first look, … Continue reading